when you have everything, and nothing

Just woke up, slept very early and long....more than 12 hours. I don't know why, of maybe I know. I should be happy, I've got everything I want, or most of it. I'm going to start poly soon. Guess I just needs something, but I don't know what is it. confused sometimes, really don't know what to do. Feel like I need to see a shrink. ARGH!!! Disappointed today. alot of people are worried about her. And I feel helpless that I didn't do enough. iXac - I just feel like giving up all the time, but giving up is not me.